I AM SO NERVOUS

Hi Sam,
I'm Zabrena Lopez, we met at the french festival and I was wearing the pink floral patterned smock dress with the frilly jabot at the front that you liked. I am so sorry it has taken me so long to email you, I've been so swamped with revision for my final exams but I have emailed to say that I would love to make your daughter a dress perhaps after exams if you're still interested. If you want, I could draw up some sketches and fabric options and email them to you by the end of october-beginning of november (after my exams finish) and if you're still interested then I would love to discuss making one for your daughter.

You can email me anytime if you have any ideas or requests. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and it was lovely to meet you that day!

ps. I love your shop! I just checked out your website and it's the most fun to browse through.

Sincerely, Zabrena.

How does that sound? I'm going to email that to the lady that I met at the french festival who wanted me to make her daughter a dress. She was so sweet! She asked about my dress and Jill told her that I made it and then next thing I knew she was giving me her card and her daughters size and she seemed really keen on having a dress made. Aw, I hope she replies. It would be so much fun to make kids clothing! I really should have emailed her sooner but I was too scared and I often put off things out of fear that they won't happen. Sigh, wish me luck!

These are some sweet things that I found off her shop's website http://www.redwagon.net.au:

Oh my God, I need to have these for my new room:

I'M NO GOOD

I hate myself
I don't care if every other seventeen year old girl and boy on this planet hates themselves too. I just made my mum cry and I have never seen her cry like that before and that is saying alot since I've seen her cry through everything. Everyone in this house hates them self and I am no different.
I wouldn't want to meet me or be friends with me or give birth to me. What the fuck.

So there's the truth, you can all go judge me now because your assumptions are probably right anyway

@ AU REVOIR LISA

LISA said...

I can't imagine you in track pants and flip flops. What happened to http://lolarevisited.blogspot.com/ ???

October 4, 2010 7:35 AM

A. I had a really bad falling out with a friend like ages ages and ages so I didn't feel comfortable leaving my thoughts there at the time. I was also too much of an emo whiny bitch on it that I kind of just wanted to leave all my horrible thoughts and posts there, haha.

Hehe, I tried to copy and paste your little display picture from the comment too but it's so small so I thought why not post a picture of us all together at last year's Christmas party. Wow, that means I haven't seen you since last summer. I miss you girly, I'm sure after exams we'll all be swimming our little butts off at MSAC again, yay!

I'm pretty sure this photos theme was titanic, hence you being all "I'm king of the world" and me being all "Omg, i dropped my necklace into the bottom of the ocean but I am so happy"

I also can't get onto your blogspot, did you move permanently to tumblr :O

BLUE MONDAY

Me on monday morning
first day of term four

two weeks of revision before exams
Hell and teenage fucking boredom

So I tried the whole 'casual hoodie and sneakers' thing (which I hardly ever do) for the first day back at school since the year 12's get to wear casual for the last two weeks but ironically I did not feel comfortable or happy in my Everlast hoodie and sneakers. The sneakers yes. The hoodie? I actually quite love. But the hoodie and the t-shirt and the sneakers together? It was too, too much for me. As ironic as it is, the idealized comfy, casual get up does not work for me at all. I figured, why not try it. You're in year 12, you should have study on the brain. Just wake up and put on that lame hoodie and go. Lot's of people seem to find the most comfort in trackies and hoodies but to be honest I didn't. I think some people were shocked to see me in what I was wearing because it was so different for me. Like when I wore jeans to Olivia's birthday party because no one had ever seen me in pants: only coloured or patterned stockings. That was fun though. Today was just depressing. It's funny how some people think that it's silly to get all dressed up on casual days at school or to just get dressed up to leave the house because of all the fuss. But it's not fuss. It's comfort, which I've learnt is subjective. I can feel warm and snuggly in my hoodie at home in the confides of my house, not having to interact with anyone or even move my butt of the couch. But today at school trying to stay awake and whilst trying to keep up conversation at recess I just felt like I was in depressing home mode where I all I wanted to do was wear fat pants and eat ice cream on the couch and not talk or smile about anything (I can be pretty depressing at home, I know). To be honest I need colour and pattern and layers and texture and lots and lots of rings. I really would feel more comfortable in my blazer or coloured stockings, really. It's weird that I didn't feel as comfy as I looked today with my scruffy hair and baggy hoodie, but at the same time slightly comforting that I will never ever want to leave my house looking like that again.

I'm sorry if i sound like a douche, but I just found today funny. Anyway, apart from dressing like a crocodile at an alligator convention (similar to everyone else there, but unconfortably different- family guy joke right thur) today was genuinely shit. I only had three or four hours of sleep and I couldn't pay attention in any of my classes or that stupid art SAC at the end of the day. Not to mention I left my glasses at home so my first day of revision was a complete waste. I also felt really displaced at recess but I can't talk about that right now so I'll just find some excluded, emo drawings to post tomorrow.

I NEED SLEEP

WRITING UP DATA SHEETS FOR ART THEORY

This over my Year 12 hoodie any day.

MATERIALISTIC

I hope your heart runs empty